please help me move out my abusive household!!
hi everyone… some of my friends knew this post was coming but I need some money to help me move out my abusive household and to get me on my feet so I can go to college in California and pursue my career to become a graphic designer.
I am 18 years old and thought about “running away” for about 2 years now. My parents are both insanely abusive psychologically and emotionally. My father is always working so I am usually stuck with my mother when I am home. She is constantly telling me to do things around the house which I do not mind doing for the most part but if I do not listen to her she loses her shit. If I tell her to take care of her own things or to do things for my younger sisters (12y/o) because I’m not able to do them or it’s not my responsibility, she gets unreasonably mad. Over the years she has attempted to destroy, or has destroyed my highly valued personal belongings (3DS, Laptop, Phone), does not let me out the house unless it’s for work (I’ve only been allowed to hang out with my friends a few times), she is CONSTANTLY yelling, (just ask anyone who I’ve been in a phone call with) she does not care if I am on the phone, she insists that my friends should hear if I am “being a bad daughter” because “I’m not listening”, she literally runs around the house naked at times, just screaming and yelling for usually no reason, I am constantly told by her that I will always need her and implies that I am worthless and that I am not self sufficient because I don’t listen to her, or whatever bullshit excuse she makes up at the time, straight up LIES to me about things I’ve seen with my own eyes and will go to extremes for me to believe her lies, just so I listen to her. She is constantly cussing out everyone in the house and basically never sleeps. She goes to the therapist but I’m pretty sure she just lies to them or doesn’t take her meds etc. I feel like I am going insane. As of recent I feel like I am always in the wrong and that she is right, and I am slowly starting to tell myself that I am a bad daughter for ever disobeying my mother, and that I owe my whole life to her because she’s my mom. I remember once in 7th grade I confronted her about how she hurts me and she just laughed straight into my face. My junior year of highschool I attempted suicide because of her. As of now I have lied to my parents telling them I am going to a college nearby (They will not allow me to go to any other college, they both also lied and told me I have options when in reality they were not going to allow me to go anywhere else and only want me to go into comp sci) and that I missed the deadline so I have to apply in Aug-sept. They are furious about this but as soon as I am accepted I will leave my home. Please help me, I have to deal with my mother doing all of the listed above on a daily basis. I don’t feel safe in my own home. If i do not move out and stay here I cannot even begin to imagine what will happen to me.
As of now financially I work part time ( I am not allowed to work full time) and only have around 1k saved. I am trying to save at least 5k total to cover costs of a ticket, taking some stuff with me, deposit and first months rent. I’m working as much as I can to save and leave. if you’re an angel and have read this far even I want to thank you for the time you spent reading this and kindly ask if you would like to help me out. My PayPal is khanhgeneva@gmail.com If you cannot help me financially I would appriciate a reblog from the bottom of my heart. any questions are welcome in my inbox. I also would appriciate any advice.. thank you for this oppritunity and your time and I’m sorry if this post came out a big mess.
TLDR: I need help moving out my abusive household. I feel like I am going insane. If you are unable to donate please reblog!
Paypal: khanhgeneva@gmail.com
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